Ministry is for the good people, the perfect people, the people who know what they’re doing. It’s so easy to feed these lies to myself; it’s easy to almost believe them. It’s easy to think that I’m not good enough, and leave the loving on people to everyone else, because I don’t want to disappoint others with my humanity. I don’t want to let God down (as if), and I don’t want to work that hard. Ministry: it’s not a job for perfect people, but for the broken.
It’s a scary thing knowing that people look up to you. Giving piggy back rides to one little girl, hearing another say that when she grows up she wants to babysit like me. I don’t want to let those little innocent hearts down, but I know that I’m imperfect, that someday I will. Does that mean that I should just draw back now, and keep God’s love to myself? Does that mean I should be a God hog? Terrifying choices are presenting themselves- choices about future ministries which will lead to more people I could let down. Should I just draw back into my little shell, and not use the talents God has given me?
The answers to these questions seem obvious, but their opposites are tempting. Wading through a mess of broken hearts is not something I look forward to. Honest confessions are crazy hard. What if I stumble? What if I fall? What if I lose my step, and I make fools of us all? What if I disappoint a precious innocent heart? Ministry is dangerous, but it is important, fulfilling, and necessary.
And so I face it because with God all things are possible. Because He has given me this amazing passion for people. He has given me big dreams, and a big heart I’m not going to let fear get in my way. I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it, but for now I’ll live fully, and try to choose wisely. I’ll continue to share God’s love whenever I get the chance, and grow in the faith. Ministry isn’t easy, and I believe that many people let fear get in their way. I’m not gonna let that happen. Are you?