Stage, lights, action! The show must go on. If only real life was as succinct as stage drama with good guys and bad guys, and definite turning points. It’s the grey areas that get me–the muddles and never ending tangled lines equal complication, and complication equals life. “Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling to discover what it really means to be saved.” There is black and white, right and wrong, but these become muddled when applied to real life, even more so when the situation at hand doesn’t have a rule to go with it. So we must “keep in step with the Spirit” That is much harder than keeping in step with a list of rules. Without that the simplicity of a script ( say this here, or shut up now) goes out the window.
So we play life by ear, adlibbing and trying to keep our lives in tune to the rules, at least. Many have given up living by the Spirit of the law. I understand why. It is hard. It takes time and effort to know God. Sometimes in the seeking I feel empty and directionless. I can justify and compromise when living on just the rules. Knowing God fully is impossible, but that can be exciting–there is always more to grasp. It can also be disheartening–this never ends. There is always a need for more growth.
I have been puzzling over things this week, which I have little time for with the stage production consuming my life. I have been thinking of those who influence me the most, and how (in many cases) they get the law all wrong. They are imperfect, they swear, they lose their tempers, they don’t read their Bible’s every day…They fail on so many levels, and yet they still make the list of my positive mentors. I know people who are better at following the law who aren’t on that list. Why? That question had me stumped for several days, and that I was stumped irked me because I knew I wanted to be like those people, but I didn’t know how. I think the answer is this: the people on my mentor list grasp (at least in part) the Spirit of the law; they keep in step with it.
Under the law I fail. Jesus died so that His un-failure could take the place of my failure and make it so I could get to Heaven. He didn’t die so that I would get frustrated trying and failing to follow the law. He died that I might live and follow in the Spirit of His life. He was perfect in law and Spirit. I am perfect in neither, but I am called to try to follow in both. He died to erase the weight of the old covenant and to bring about a new covenant in the Spirit. These thoughts are still in the birthing stages. As I said I haven’t had much time to think, but hopefully they make at least a little bit of sense? What do you think about this? Let me know.
*Just wanted to clarify that I’m not trying to make excuses for not following the law. That isn’t the part of my mentors that I admire. What I admire is something deeper and harder to describe, an atmosphere of sorts, or, I guess you could say, a Spirit.*